Love Deep, Shine Bright

“We weren’t called to love
That’s the way it goes
You find someone you trust
then you have to let go
But, it’s fine
You chase your dreams
I’ll chase mine
We’re goin two different directions
With too little time
So don’t worry
I’ll be fine”
— My Mind

Thanks for the fun
It’s been so great
One hell of a lie
Still you think it’s fate
Time to steer you right
Let’s say goodnight
I’m breaking your heart
You’ve taken the bait.
You gave me the reigns
I’ve always had control
I reel in your heart
Then in a second
Drop the pole
Switch my intentions
Soon as you’re turned around
What would I do
If you figured me out
Practice your poker face
Babe, you’re starting to show
There’s no room for truth
Let’s just fake love and go
Your heart is my game
Call me the queen
Your pain is my gain
I’m just too mean
Yet you distract yourself
and choose to believe
One day I will change
But, baby, this is me.



Life & Love - Both Horribly Sad

Sometimes life has a way of making itself look horribly sad.
Like heartbreak for example. 
You put so much time, effort, and emotions into one person
You would expect to get those things back, right? 
I think that’s what the Equity theory says.
So what happens when you get so close to someone
when they know every little thing about you
when they claim to love you
even when you feel like there’s nothing to love.
I’ll tell you what happens. 
You fall head over heels for them. 
Every time you see them, or hear their voice
your body releases this feeling
Happiness
This overwhelming feeling that everything is right
As long as you keep doing what you’re doing
things will continue to go this way, right?
Wrong.
It doesn’t necessarily matter.
Here’s a tip:
If something isn’t going to work, it won’t
"If only I knew then what I know now"
There’s so much truth to that phrase.
Maybe I wouldn’t have wasted my energy.
Maybe I wouldn’t be stuck here
In this place where my heart hurts every breath that I take.
Maybe I wouldn’t be stuck here
Wondering if I should blame myself for something
What if I hadn’t have said this
What if I hadn’t have done that
What if I just focused on making that person happy
Maybe it wouldn’t be this way. 
Maybe if I was a little more aware of the damage this was going to cause
BEFORE we began
I would have tried a little harder to push the feelings aside.
Oh well, 
I suppose I can’t change things now.
So I’ll just sit in this coffee shop
Distracting myself with work
Trying not to focus on how my heart feels like it’s being choked
and there’s nothing I can say or do 
to make that feeling go away.

So heartache. Yeah, that’s a good example of how life can change into something horribly sad.

"Dear Heart, 
do you belong to me, or do I belong to you? Look at all the trouble you’ve dragged me into.” - Sanctus Real

“Human beings are ambitious. We spend so much time wanting, pursuing, wishing. For the most part, that’s okay. Ambition is good. Facing things with integrity is good. Dreaming is good. As long as the chase doesn’t diminish what we already have - the goodness we take for granted, the people we take for granted, and the lives we take for granted. My life, is good.”
— One Tree Hill
“Keep your eyes on your own grass and water that grass, clean it up and make it pretty, inside and out. Pass some tests. Stop being so emotional. Surround yourself with positive women. Stop going to the club to find men. Stop having sex with randoms (a person that you know you’ll never marry but you date them because you’re bored or lonely) . Stop complaining about your “time”. When completely trusting in Him, you’ll no longer question, worry or fear the future. Instead, you’ll be excited about the future, because life will no longer be about you, but it will be about Christ alone.”
Pink Lips & Empty Hearts: Completely Dressed Up & Broken Inside By Heather Lindsey
“…Maybe I just wanna sing
I wanna drown this pain out
with words written on my heart
describing all the doubt
Maybe by the time
the rain clears this drought
You’ll see right through me
See what I’m all about…”
— My inner most thoughts

2013 Goals:

Turn 20
Attend 2 Concerts
Buy a guitar and/or keyboard
Play at least 3 shows
Record at least 5 new YouTube videos
Be determined to succeed, regardless of other’s opinions.

Do these and it will be the BEST.YEAR.YET. :)

*You Rock*

— My most inner thoughts

Today is the day. I’m gonna follow my dreams. It may be a competitive race to run. It may be the hardest thing I’ve ever done, but I’m gonna do it. A wise man once said “You have to have the skill and the will. But the will must be stronger than the skill.” Time to step it up. I’m going to use the talents that the Good Lord gave me. I may even fail. But that’s okay! If I fail, at least I’ve tried. But hey! Maybe I won’t ;) I’m tired of allowing fear to control what I do (or do NOT do in this case). You have to work for what you want. We have ONE life. Why not try? 

#truth #gospel #salvation #love

#truth #gospel #salvation #love

(Source: spiritualinspiration)

Life can be so sweet. Friends, laughter, and a purpose makes everything seem perfect. Nature is beautiful. We are SO alive. Yet, somehow.. somewhere in between, love is taken for granted. People cry. Hearts are broken. Lives are flipped upside down. Days start out bright and slowly fade to gray, while this fire inside is slowly dimming out. A fire meant to shine a light in the darkest places of this earth, isn’t being used. It’s being masked by insecurities, fear, apathy, and selfishness. We are broken. We live a dull, boring, mediocre  life. We go to our 8am class, then to work to pay for the $500 apartment we just HAD to have. We stay up until 2am partying, talking, sitting, or doing whatever, just to have to get up in 5 hours and do it all again. Man, are we awesome or what?!

We call ourselves Christians. We call ourselves FOLLOWERS OF CHRIST, yet we live to please the people most important to us. We live for people when we should be living for God. We ALL have a purpose. Yet, we push it aside because it involves actual effort. Living a holy life, being an example of Christ to everyone around us is just TOO hard to do. We are being asked WAY too much. 

STOP.

If we are TRULY in love with our God, we will NOT make excuses! If loving people and spreading the Good News was  important for Christ to do, why isn’t it important to us??